Pellicula

I thought about you again today , it is already yesterday now. I was in the cinema , watching a 35 mm film for the first time in my life.

Amazed , with my mind rotating ... 

I thought about my all time  companion , the one I sometimes obsess over and think about at the weirdest of times ; death. How it would feel like to be gone , what it is to be part of the void ?

I thought of my death and then I thought of you. 

I closed my eyes and saw your smile , at least my memory of it. The echo of your voice saying you love and care about me , resonated within me. 

For a while , I missed you. I missed the thought of having you , selfishly , foolishly , unrealistically , for me.